It was a conflict within myself. My negative self talk was saying that I was still too fat to wear them and that I looked silly in them. They made my calves look huge and my stomach look even bigger because it was not proportional. However, I could also hear 286lb-SherRon screaming in the back of my mind, "WEAR THE SKINNY JEANS!" My perception of my size was so much different when I was larger. How many of us have once been a size, and thought we were so fat, but would kill to go back?
I left the fitting room undecided. I would try them again, but those certainly weren't the pair. I couldn't shake the experience. Why was I so scared to try something new? I resolved that I was going to stop being worried about how silly I was going to look. It was a simple pair of jeans.
I wondered how many other things I'd not done because of my size. How many times have I been too worried about what people would think of me?
I went back to the store, I bought the skinny jeans, and I rocked them!
I realized that this is not about simply wearing a pair of jeans. This is about living life right now, not waiting until we reach our goal weight. There is nothing magical about that number we all have picked out in our mind. Life won't start being wonderful then, but it can start now.
So, I'd like to challenge all of you to do one thing that you otherwise wouldn't do because of your size or appearance. You can wear skinny jeans, or red lipstick, or a two-piece. You can get up and sing karaoke or dance on a raised floor. Sent me a picture of what you did, or write me about your experience and I'd be happy to share it.
Grab a button and put it up on your blog so that people can see you're choosing to live life now and they can join us in the challenge.
PS: I'll be posting a picture of me in skinny jeans shortly.