A Non-Scale Victory.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

I've never been able to wear my friends clothes. I've never even considered asking. I've always been the fat friend. I used to be so jealous of other girls that had 4 times the wardrobe because they could share and swap back and forth. The only person I've been able to share clothes with was my sister and I haven't been able to do that for years.

This past weekend, that changed. I was with some friends and sat down on a bench that had recently been sprayed off. My whole back side was soaked. I was upset because I knew this meant that I had to spend the rest of the evening in soggy jeans. Then one of my friends piped up, "You can borrow a pair of mine!" and rushed off to her bedroom to find something suitable.

I had a quick flash back to "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" when they come up with the idea to share pants and the larger of the girls says, "You think that a pair of pants that fits all three of you is going to fit...all of this?!"

I was scared. I was scared that they wouldn't fit and I'd either be stuck in soggy jeans with my friends questioning why I was still wearing them, or in sausage casing tight pants that I couldn't move or breath in. My friend came bouncing back with a pair of pajama pants that I quickly changed into. THEY FIT! They weren't too tight, they weren't too lose. Granted...they were stretchy pajama pajama pants that probably could fit an array of people, but it didn't matter. They were my friend's pants and they were on me!

As for being back on the wagon...I'm pretty much rocking it. I've been to the gym every night this week. My eating has been on track. I lifted weights. I go on walks around my office park on my lunch break. BOYAH!

The Dress

Monday, September 27, 2010

This year I've found a lot of motivation in competitions like the biggest loser group I participated in. I also was inspired by the thought that if I could lose just 2 lbs a week, I could lose over 100 lbs in a year. There is a third inspiration I haven't shared with you. Back in March, Matthew and I booked our anniversary cruise. This November will mark our second year of marriage and we're celebrating by taking an 8 day cruise down to Acapulco, Mexico and I couldn't be more excited!

Since the time we booked it, I've had visions of what my vacation pictures could look like. How healthy I'd look. Last November we went on a cruise and our pictures were so bad I didn't really want to show anyone. I was so embarrassed of my size. We didn't even purchase any formal pictures on the cruise because I couldn't find one that I liked.

This year will be different. This year, I'll be hunting down the professional photographers on the ship an posing for all the pictures I'd like. I won't worry about onlookers and I'll take pride in what I see on the prints.

One of the things I've been the most excited for is the formal night. I've spent a lot of time looking for a dress that I just love and I finally found it. This little number stole my heart.

Looks hot huh? I found the dress at TJ Maxx and I couldn't stop thinking about it. THIS is the dress I want to be wearing. Well, there is one big problem. It doesn't do up in the back. This dress is a size 12. I'm not a size 12. I thought about finding the dress online and in a size up but when I found it, it was $5o more and I'm kind of a cheap girl.

I know that in order to make this dress happen, I'm really going to have to buckle down and try hard. I've lit my own flame. I have my motivation back. I'm focused. I'm eating right. I'm planning my evenings so I can exercise.

So the plan for the next 7 weeks is:
  • Log my food and exercise EVERY DAY! I've been slacking at this and I can really tell a difference.
  • Workout at least 5 days a week for at least 45 minutes.
  • Focus on toning and strength building exercises.

The photo of me in the dress is now my background on my phone so I am always reminded of my goals. I've got 45 days to lose a dress size but I've got a mountain of motivation. And how is this for a start?

What motivates you?

CSN Winner and The Fair

Monday, September 20, 2010

If you knew how I'd been eating this past week, it would come to no surprise to you that I gained on the scale again. My Saturday morning weigh-ins have become things I dread now when they used to be one of the highlights of my week. I felt like all of my efforts were validated and that I was headed in the right direction.

Now it seems like I'm getting a test back that I know I didn't study for. I'm not really sure why I'm off my groove most days of the week. I can understand allowing myself special occasion food, but I'm having a hard time deciding what counts as a special occasion.

I remember when I first started my diet I had to come to terms with not always eating what I wanted, whenever I wanted it. I had to understand that just because something sounded good, didn't mean that I should eat it. I'm finding myself falling back into that hole more and more lately and I need to find a way to reel myself back in.

Speaking of special occasion food, this last weekend Matt and I went to the state fair.

Matt and I shared a deep-fried PB&J

I had some cinnamon roasted almonds.

And we shared some funnel cake with some friends.
I probably should have been a little quicker with the camera on this one.

It was a great time and I don't regret anything I ate there. I do regret the large dinner I had after the fair. I also regret the large chicken wrap from a drive-in I had on Saturday.

Anyway...enough about me. Let's give this gift card away!

And the lucky winner is....

Leane from Leanne Lately

Send me your email address and I'll get you the gift card.

Thanks everyone for entering!

CSN Gift Card Giveaway

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Do you guys remember way back in June when I told you to look forward to a review and a giveaway from CSN stores? Well, that day has finally arrived.

The hardest part about this giveaway was choosing what I wanted. There are so many items in so many stores! They carry everything from dining tables, to fitness equipment, to shoes and accessories.

I browsed through many, many different stores but kept going back to the shoe section. (Can you blame me?) Being a good weight loss blogger I would have purchased something in the health and fitness section, but where is the fun in being good all the time?

After several hours pouring over the different shoes, I picked a pair and submitted my order. Immediately afterward I got an email telling me my order had been received and that it would ship from the warehouse within two days. The first day came and went with no news from the store. The second day I received an email telling me they were checking with the warehouse to see why my item had not shipped and within just a few hours I had tracking information. My item arrived within two business days. TWO!

I was thrilled to come home to a package that contained another box that looked like this:

I'm a sucker for a cute shoe box.

and on the inside....

(If you're loving these shoes as much as I am, you can find them here.)

I really enjoyed my experience with CSN and I'll definitely be shopping there again.

Here is your chance. CSN is giving away a $40 gift card to one of my readers. There are 4 different ways to enter.

1. You must be a follower of my blog.

2. Follow me on twitter @shoestolose

4. Post about this giveaway on your blog.

Please be sure to leave a comment for each entry. Contest ends Saturday at Midnight MST.

Good Luck!

Fine Print: US and Canada only and international shipping charges may apply for Canada addresses. CSN Stores did provide me with a gift card so that I could share my opinion of their stellar customer service with y'all.

Finding a Balance

Monday, September 13, 2010

As I approach the 100 lb mark, I have done a lot of reflecting about the changes I've made. I know that it is all too easy to slip back into my old ways. Its always easier to just not care but this certainly isn't something I want for myself and my future. I need to make sure that the changes I'm making are truly lifestyle changes and that they are sustainable.
I've done some experimenting. I've stopped counting my calories religiously and I've loosened the reigns on what I'm eating. This resulted in a gain of 2.9 lbs on the scale. Its certainly not the result I was looking for but I think that I'm finding my balance and deciding what is important to me.

I don't want to always be the person at diner ordering a salad with no cheese or bacon and dressing on the side.

I don't want my family and friends to plan meals around "What I can eat."

I don't want to log my calories and exercises every day.

I do want to go on a date with my husband and really enjoy dinner.

I do want to go to festivals, fairs, and holiday meals and enjoy the foods of the season.

I'd like to enjoy all life has to offer and if that involves occasionally eating things that aren't always the best for me, than so be it. This weekend was full of life and wonderful food and if that means that I gained weight, I'm ok with that. I know that I'm going to be back on track this week. Eating healthy and working out.

Friday night Matthew and I went on a date night to a local pizzeria. Together we shared an appetizer of ricotta gniocchi and it was quite possibly the best thing I've ever eaten. I'm so glad that I didn't pass because I would have gone over my calories.

We spent Saturday at a local amusment park where I shared a carmel apple with the hubs and afterwards we went out to dinner with some of Matt's family.

Sunday was spent at the Salt Lake City Greek Festival where I was able to try some really amazing Greek food. I had my first taste of Tyropita, Baklava, Gyro, and Loukoumades. These aren't foods that I would normally be able to get and I wasn't going to let the opportunity pass me by.

I'm sure I went over my calories every day this weekend but I had a great time and I don't regret any of my choices. . I did a lot of walking both days and I'm right back on track tonight. Next weekend Matt and I will be attending the state fair and I have every intention of eating something deep fried. I want to become healthy, but I'm not going to let life pass me by while I get there.

Besides, who wants to live life without the occasional burger and fries?

Contest and Compliments

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

For those of you that don't know, Matthew and I were participating in a friendly round of couples biggest loser. Well.....Drum roll please.....We won! This news is coming a little late as the competition ended a little over two weeks ago but I realized that I never shared that with you. Matt and I lost an average of 16% of our body weight in 11 weeks. Holy smokes! Matt did such a wonderful job and lost 60 lbs. Losing weight is much easier when you're married to an inspiration.

I'd like to send a shout out to my brother and sister-in-law who made the competition a challenge and kept the competition steep. They lost a combined 13.9%.

Today I wore a size 14. 14! I'm still shocked at that number. The smallest size I ever remember wearing is a 12 and I wore that when I was in jr. high. In high school I wore an 18 so I'm not quite sure when 14 got jumped, but lets just say I was young.

The pants I got from my sister when she came down to visit nearly a month ago. She's lost about 55 lbs herself and they were just hanging on her. So I made a deal with her. If I could put the pants on and do them up, she had to leave them with me. I was able to do that however, they were far from being acceptable in public. You know those items that you could wear out, but you really shouldn't? Yeah, thats where this one fits in. Well today I thought I'd give them a shot and low and behold, they fit.

Today while walking in to my office, one of my co-workers said "Wow! You look so skinny!" She later told me that it looked like I'd lost 20 lbs over the weekend. I guess this means that the jeans were a hit.

I'm starting to get a lot more compliments these days. They are very nice but I'm finding I'm having a hard time accepting them graciously. I was once told that when you are complicated you should simply say Thank you and accept the compliment. Am I the only one that has a hard time accepting compliments?

Questions Game

Friday, September 3, 2010

Lyndsay over at Thinspiration tagged me in a question game where I answer 8 questions she made up and then make my own questions and tag my friends. So here goes....

Who's your favorite Muppet?
I never watched the Muppets. I'd probably have to say Kermit just because he puts up with Miss Piggy.
What's your favorite school supply?
Pencil boxes. They were always such a big deal in elementry. I've been considering getting a funky one for my work desk.
What's the best costume you've ever worn?
One year I went as a Chip-munk. I work a monk robe with little bags of chips pinned all over it. I'm all about the play-on-word costumes.
What's your least favorite word?
Anyways. Its anyway. There is no need for the "s" at the end. You covered all of the ways available when you said "Any".
If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be?
Virginia, Alaska wouldn't be too bad either.
Who's your favorite Care Bear?
Are there different ones?
What did you have for lunch yesterday?
Lean Cuisine Three Cheese stuffed Rigatoni. Today I tried the Michelina's version. Mistake.
What's your favorite Broadway musical?
Mama Mia! Matt and I went and saw the movie the night he proposed. Plus....it is just cheesy ABBA music. How could a girl not like that?

1- If you were a spice, what spice would you be and why?
2- Are you more likely to be caught bare-foot or with shoes on?
3-If you could only watch one tv channel for the rest of your life, which channel would you chose?
4-What is your favorite guilty pleasure song? (cheesy, awful...but at the same time, great!)
5- What do you top your salad with?
6- What is your favorite season and why?
7- Are there any animals that absolutely terrify you?
8-What is your favorite low-cal snack?

Alright. I want the following to answer the questions.
LaraLee- Lardy No More

No pressure ladies. Just have fun with it.
Have a great weekend!

Could it be love?

Thursday, September 2, 2010

So my friend Dawne over at "It's My Time" always talks about falling in love with exercise. I agree that it is definitely something that will need to happen in order to be able to maintain this weight loss. To be honest, I'm not in love with the elliptical. There. I said it. I know it is surprising that I don't enjoy moving in the same spot, looking at the same thing, but I just don't.

Lately I've really enjoyed riding my bike but let's be realistic. I live in Utah. In a few months that isn't going to be an option for me.

I dabbled a bit in tennis, but I was really bad at it right off the back (who would have suspected) and I ended up just being really frustrated.

I'd like to think I'm going to be a runner, but I have pretty bad knees and I'm not sure that will ever happen.

I have, however, found a fondness in doing yoga. It was very unexpected. I tried it out a little at the beginning of this year when I was much larger and it just wasn't going to happen. As I've revisited the practice, I find myself really enjoying it. I finish my session sweating and shaking and the following day I'm usually sore.

I'm not sure Yoga is "The One" but it just may be. There is certainly some chemistry.

Have you fallen in love with exercise?